"Before he visited, I missed him a lot and didn't know if I'd ever see him again and it made me sad. After he visited, I knew what it would be like if he was here, and it made the waiting hurt a lot more. Especially since at first I was convinced she would show up again any day now, and then the longer it went, the harder it became to believe I'd see her again. Before she showed up for visitor's day, I had... hm. It was easier to hope."